Omaha Mall Gunman Suicide Note Released
By Mar Celo on Dec 7, 2007 in US News | | |
Police have released the first surveillance images and a three-page, handwritten suicide note of Robert A. Hawkins, the 19 year old gunman who killed eight people in an Omaha mall on Wednesday.
Hawkins wrote that he ‘just snapped’ in a letter and expresses love for his friends and family and hate for his random victims.
“I know everyone will remember me as some sort of monster but please understand that I just don’t want to be a burden on the ones that I care for my entire life,” “I just want to take a few peices (sic) of (expletive) with me.”
He apologized to his friends in one page of the note, saying, “I’ve been a peice (sic) of (expletive) my entire life it seems this is my only option.”
He said his friends would be better off without him, and told them to remember the good times they had.
“Just think tho I’m gonna be (expletive) famous,”
He was more apologetic in another page addressed to his family.
“I’m so sorry for what I’ve put you through I never meant to hurt all of you so much and I don’t blame any one of you for disowning me,”
“I’ve just snapped I can’t take this meaningless existence anymore I’ve been a constant disappointment and that trend would have only continued.”He added, “I love you mommy. I love you dad,”
The third page was his will: “I’m giving my car back to my mom and my friends can have whatever else I leave behind.”
Hawkins spent four years in a series of treatment centers, group homes and foster care after threatening to kill his stepmother in 2002 but was released in 2006 by social workers.
